Friday, 23 June 2017

Stuff I've discovered

Recently my life has been full of discoveries. Well, some are new discoveries and some are just things that are being confirmed.

Like People Tokens. I always suspected that I only ever have a limited supply but I think I know now just how limited. It's really just the one thing that I can't do anything about. When I'm out, I'm out.

Another discovery is that I don't really like to run socials. It's not really my thing. I don't want to have to worry too much about how to make sure everyone has a good time (though obviously I do want them to). I also hate wondering if anyone will show up. I also don't know if I will have enough People Tokens on the day. This all combines to make it kind of exhausting and even if I try to prepare, still out of my control (because of PT).

Another thing is that I just can't do more than 4 hours a day. I would break down. Also tiredness is totally cumulative. I'm now cumulatively tired. I've not managed to do more than 1 hr of popping every day. I've been more or less doing just the bare minimum for about a week and this morning I finally had some energy and inspiration but going out and getting a haircut and seeing a venue and two friends for a cuppa kind of used that up. I still did my hour of popping and tried to practice some general stuff after that but now I'm wiped.

I hate the feeling that I'm not working hard enough but I realize sometimes I don't have more to give and beating myself up won't help. That's why I'm looking forward (even more) to being away.

Also the weather is dreadfully muggy. It'll be nicer to be in Europe.

Another thing I've been thinking is that my most tangible progress is actually through rhythm. I should resume classes when I get back, because on my own I quickly fall out of practice.

oh and also just to keep things in one place