Friday, 23 June 2017

Stuff I've discovered

Recently my life has been full of discoveries. Well, some are new discoveries and some are just things that are being confirmed.

Like People Tokens. I always suspected that I only ever have a limited supply but I think I know now just how limited. It's really just the one thing that I can't do anything about. When I'm out, I'm out.

Another discovery is that I don't really like to run socials. It's not really my thing. I don't want to have to worry too much about how to make sure everyone has a good time (though obviously I do want them to). I also hate wondering if anyone will show up. I also don't know if I will have enough People Tokens on the day. This all combines to make it kind of exhausting and even if I try to prepare, still out of my control (because of PT).

Another thing is that I just can't do more than 4 hours a day. I would break down. Also tiredness is totally cumulative. I'm now cumulatively tired. I've not managed to do more than 1 hr of popping every day. I've been more or less doing just the bare minimum for about a week and this morning I finally had some energy and inspiration but going out and getting a haircut and seeing a venue and two friends for a cuppa kind of used that up. I still did my hour of popping and tried to practice some general stuff after that but now I'm wiped.

I hate the feeling that I'm not working hard enough but I realize sometimes I don't have more to give and beating myself up won't help. That's why I'm looking forward (even more) to being away.

Also the weather is dreadfully muggy. It'll be nicer to be in Europe.

Another thing I've been thinking is that my most tangible progress is actually through rhythm. I should resume classes when I get back, because on my own I quickly fall out of practice.

oh and also just to keep things in one place

Wednesday, 14 June 2017


Sometimes I feel like I might be overloading. Last month I was doing a lot of lessons and I gave a talk and I organized a party and tried to finish a routine I was learning etc. It got to be a bit much. This month is the last month before Herräng so I'm trying to take it easy and do less. I would hate to leave for a long trip in a flurried frame of mind.

Most of the time I struggle to improve but sometimes I feel palpably better at dancing because I'm now able to do things that were not possible before. Obviously on an absolute scale I'm still totally rubbish at some of these things, but it doesn't matter. Progress is progress.

When I practice popping it's very difficult not to think things like "this looks shit it's totally stupid it's too late I'm to old to pick it up" and feel discouraged. So I just tell myself that I can assess at the end of the month when I've put in all the practice hours - not before. Measuring progress before I've put in the number of hours I decided to put in is counterproductive.

At the same time I'm looking forward to some time off in Herräng just to unwind and go back to my first love. Swing will be so much fun. I'm also doing the authentic jazz track in week 3 which I'm looking forward to. I have to remind myself not to be too confident just because I've done so much street dance lately XD They are different disciplines after all and I'm sure there will still be plenty of super challenging things ahead ^-^