Sunday, 28 August 2011

by the riverside

a bit of good old fashioned domestic violence.

Monday, 22 August 2011

Predators & Prey

You are only completely helpless if someone's made you believe that you are.
Don't teach me to be good. Teach me to be strong.

Saturday, 20 August 2011

what we should do

is open up a cafe by day, restaurant by night, venue on the weekends, and swing dancing all the time kinda joint. what say you, dr. ingram?

Wednesday, 17 August 2011

curry & dmt

[topher, looking more or less exactly the same as before]

tonight i had dinner with 3 of my favourite people in the world: toph, dan, and anders. i have sat at home in taiwan, at times, remembering and missing them. so i'm glad that we were all together.

the weather has been absolutely terrible. dan and i were soaked on our shopping spree, and spent the rest of the day curled up in comfort at home. we did a tad of cleaning, and plenty of cooking, eating, and drinking. anders & toph geeked out big time on music chat. dan and i peeled apples for apple mousse.

so many things about toph bring back happy memories. i keep finding object in the flat and saying 'hey, this is mine!' (the Canon camera, the woollen blanket, the one kroner piece on the keychain, the frying pan)

i am so incredibly grateful to have them in my life - especially to still have Toph, after all that. in a way i am reminded, at every turn, of how much i have lost. but looking at him again i am reminded also of what i still, and will continue to have.

that is the way things are often, i suppose. everything changes. but nothing changes. i lose things, but then nothing is lost.

Friday, 12 August 2011


but of course! How could I forget some of the happiest times in my life? These people/events made me who I am, and I am so grateful for it.

Wednesday, 10 August 2011

Just for the record, today I am happy

Not satisfied with all aspects of my life (I could probably be working harder), but for the first time in a while now I am feeling really, really happy.

Happy like the time when I was living in Edinburgh, or when I was in Oxford. In part I think it helps to be settled somewhere, but an even bigger part of it is the people. Yes, even if they are only here for two weeks at a time.

Brent & Steve and I went to Toasteria near ZXDH, and then Brent and I took my cousin Owen to the Mod Bar for a drink (his first drink at a bar, ever!).

I have become obsessed with reading someone's blog from 2006.

I managed to retrieve my old blog from Windows Live Spaces even though I missed the migration deadline. That made me really happy - it's nice to save so much from another life.

But it's even better to like the life I have now.

Tomorrow I go back to the UK to see lots and lots of people I love. Who could ask for anything more?

p.s. re-reading my old blog from uni: I once woke up at six am and drove down from Scoraig just to make it back to DHT in time for Dr. Claire Colebrook's lecture on realism. Apparently it was rather worth the trek.