Before I forget

One of the most confusing and terrifying things is: you know it's wrong but you can't stop your body reacting the way it does. That pretty much fucks you up for a good long while, associating all the worst of everything with what should feel good.

One of the saddest things is that I'll never know what it's like to be kissed for the first time by a boy I like. That gets me every time.