Many many things

remind me of you. If there were something I could do, I would. The hardest thing is understanding that doing nothing would be better.

傾城之戀，by 張愛玲

海灣裏有這麼一個地方，有的是密密層層的人，密密層層的燈，密密層層的耀眼的貨品 - 藍磁雙耳小花瓶、一捲一捲蔥綠堆金絲絨、玻璃紙袋裝著「巴島蝦片」、琥珀色的熱帶產的榴槤糕、拖著大紅穗子的佛珠、鵝黃的香袋、烏銀小十字架，寶塔頂的涼帽；然而在這燈與人與貨之外，還有那淒清的天與海 - 無邊的呼荒涼，無邊的恐怖。她的未來，也是如此 - 不能想，想起來只有無邊的恐怖。她沒有天長地久的計畫。只有在這眼前的瑣碎小東西裏，她的畏縮不安的心，能夠得到暫時的休息。

(from 第一爐香)

hi's and bye's

whenever it comes time to say goodbye I get all a bit panicked and sentimental.
I guess I have to remember that pretty soon I'll be worried about saying goodbye to other people. And it'll be time to say hello to you again!

太陽天

在大太陽下，車子曬的快要昏倒了，心裡不免埋怨老闆這麼不解車意，都沒有替它爭取有陰影的車位。好不容易日正當中的時候要回家去午休了，車子拖著沉重的輪胎，在太陽下吃力的跑著，覺得自己好辛苦喔，是不是應該罷工呢？而且都已經了七千公里了，還不替我換油，來經銷潤滑油的公司當經理，又有什麼用呢，車子想著想著，都快哭出來了。還好午休完回到公司時，有遮雨棚的位置是空的。車子大剌剌的停了進去，一下子精神都來了，跩的不得了。下雨天停到這個車位，怎麼能跟大太陽天停到這個車位比呢？哼！夏天在這裡休息，才爽呢。車子好樂，決定暫時不罷工了。不管怎麼說，自己都不年輕了，隨便就罷工說不定會被淘汰哩。嗯，還是安份一點好。

(老闆現在正在考慮要買新車，只是車子還不知道)

down time

戲院沒觀眾的時候，畫畫佈景吧。

When no one is in the theatre, paint some scenery.

Tinfoil Hat, by Scott Dunbar

(currently playing on repeat.)

I'm gonna tell my eyes not to see no colours
Tell my ears not to take no lovers
Keep my head underneath the covers
Keep my eyes on you
I don't need no others

Throw away all my old letters
Sit in the kitchen and trim my feathers
Got a picture of you to replace the sky
If I lose you in a crowd
I'll sit down and cry

Got a tinfoil hat that keeps me from dreaming
Gonna sip my wine and stare at the ceiling
Gonna keep my smiles in the breadbox
Til you get home
Choke them down with water
When you leave me all alone

Gonna tell my eyes not to see no colours
Tell my ears not to take no lovers
Gonna keep my head underneath the covers
Keep my eyes on you I don't need no others
Throw away all my old letters
I'll sit in the kitchen and trim my feathers
Got a picture of you to replace the sky
If I lose you in a crowd
I'll lay down
I'll lay down
I'll lay down
I'll lay down
I'll lay down
And I'll die

I don't need
I don't need
I don't need
I don't need
I don't need no others.

Don't be sad

煮飯花 (The Four O' Clock flower).
For you and me.

I can change

I am not perfect but I will get better.
I am not perfect but I will get better.
I am not perfect but I will get better.
I am not perfect but I will get better.
I am not perfect but I will get better.

I can fix it.

Please trust me. I can fix it.

I hope

that we will not be lost.

Even if you knew

that it was going to happen, it's still tough.

The pleasures of owning a puppy

Got home late, let the puppy out. he charges to the door, and then starts to pee. I stop him and pick him up to take him down stairs (to stop him peeing in the lift). He then starts to paw my face, so then I was in the lift, with dog pee all over my face. Just another day with puppy.

Usually if I scold him he lies belly down and sometimes puts his paws over his face. Then when I've finished jabbing my finger and raising my voice, he'll come over and lick my hands or knees and generally cozy up to me. The worst is when he makes a mess that I need to clean up (like when he pulled out a whole roll of toilet paper and danced around with it), so I need to put him in a separate room right after he's been scolded. Then he cries inconsoably. I think it's because he thinks that I'm still mad at him (true) and that our relationship will never be repaired (false).

Like Charles Chulz says, happiness is a warm puppy. I think I'm going to paint that on my wall.