Many many things

remind me of you. If there were something I could do, I would. The hardest thing is understanding that doing nothing would be better.

傾城之戀，by 張愛玲

海灣裏有這麼一個地方，有的是密密層層的人，密密層層的燈，密密層層的耀眼的貨品 - 藍磁雙耳小花瓶、一捲一捲蔥綠堆金絲絨、玻璃紙袋裝著「巴島蝦片」、琥珀色的熱帶產的榴槤糕、拖著大紅穗子的佛珠、鵝黃的香袋、烏銀小十字架，寶塔頂的涼帽；然而在這燈與人與貨之外，還有那淒清的天與海 - 無邊的呼荒涼，無邊的恐怖。她的未來，也是如此 - 不能想，想起來只有無邊的恐怖。她沒有天長地久的計畫。只有在這眼前的瑣碎小東西裏，她的畏縮不安的心，能夠得到暫時的休息。

(from 第一爐香)

hi's and bye's

whenever it comes time to say goodbye I get all a bit panicked and sentimental.
I guess I have to remember that pretty soon I'll be worried about saying goodbye to other people. And it'll be time to say hello to you again!

太陽天

在大太陽下，車子曬的快要昏倒了，心裡不免埋怨老闆這麼不解車意，都沒有替它爭取有陰影的車位。好不容易日正當中的時候要回家去午休了，車子拖著沉重的輪胎，在太陽下吃力的跑著，覺得自己好辛苦喔，是不是應該罷工呢？而且都已經了七千公里了，還不替我換油，來經銷潤滑油的公司當經理，又有什麼用呢，車子想著想著，都快哭出來了。還好午休完回到公司時，有遮雨棚的位置是空的。車子大剌剌的停了進去，一下子精神都來了，跩的不得了。下雨天停到這個車位，怎麼能跟大太陽天停到這個車位比呢？哼！夏天在這裡休息，才爽呢。車子好樂，決定暫時不罷工了。不管怎麼說，自己都不年輕了，隨便就罷工說不定會被淘汰哩。嗯，還是安份一點好。

(老闆現在正在考慮要買新車，只是車子還不知道)

down time

戲院沒觀眾的時候，畫畫佈景吧。

When no one is in the theatre, paint some scenery.

Tinfoil Hat, by Scott Dunbar

(currently playing on repeat.)

I'm gonna tell my eyes not to see no colours
Tell my ears not to take no lovers
Keep my head underneath the covers
Keep my eyes on you
I don't need no others

Throw away all my old letters
Sit in the kitchen and trim my feathers
Got a picture of you to replace the sky
If I lose you in a crowd
I'll sit down and cry

Got a tinfoil hat that keeps me from dreaming
Gonna sip my wine and stare at the ceiling
Gonna keep my smiles in the breadbox
Til you get home
Choke them down with water
When you leave me all alone

Gonna tell my eyes not to see no colours
Tell my ears not to take no lovers
Gonna keep my head underneath the covers
Keep my eyes on you I don't need no others
Throw away all my old letters
I'll sit in the kitchen and trim my feathers
Got a picture of you to replace the sky
If I lose you in a crowd
I'll lay down
I'll lay down
I'll lay down
I'll lay down
I'll lay down
And I'll die

I don't need
I don't need
I don't need
I don't need
I don't need no others.

Don't be sad

煮飯花 (The Four O' Clock flower).
For you and me.

I can change

I am not perfect but I will get better.
I am not perfect but I will get better.
I am not perfect but I will get better.
I am not perfect but I will get better.
I am not perfect but I will get better.

I can fix it.

Please trust me. I can fix it.

I hope

that we will not be lost.

Even if you knew

that it was going to happen, it's still tough.

The pleasures of owning a puppy

Got home late, let the puppy out. he charges to the door, and then starts to pee. I stop him and pick him up to take him down stairs (to stop him peeing in the lift). He then starts to paw my face, so then I was in the lift, with dog pee all over my face. Just another day with puppy.

Usually if I scold him he lies belly down and sometimes puts his paws over his face. Then when I've finished jabbing my finger and raising my voice, he'll come over and lick my hands or knees and generally cozy up to me. The worst is when he makes a mess that I need to clean up (like when he pulled out a whole roll of toilet paper and danced around with it), so I need to put him in a separate room right after he's been scolded. Then he cries inconsoably. I think it's because he thinks that I'm still mad at him (true) and that our relationship will never be repaired (false).

Like Charles Chulz says, happiness is a warm puppy. I think I'm going to paint that on my wall.

睡

老闆在大陸出差的時候，車子在地下停車場睡的好熟。因為年紀大了，所以多休息也好，不像還是新車的時候，一天不去到處跑跑就覺得不舒服。引擎沒有發動時，車子現在幾乎都是睡著的，想張開眼睛都不太容易。以前只少會跟其他的車哈拉哈拉，但是現在沒那個精神了。有時迷迷糊糊的慶幸自己在地下停車場, 下雨都不知道。

Excuse me miss...

is it just me or is your head a giant strawberry?

I want to set you up with my friend.

His head is a giant kaki.

Back then

Suddenly had a flashback to Binsey. We were on a long cycle to nowhere in particular and stopped off at St. Margaret's church to see Caroll's treacle well. It was a sunny day and all the countryside was incredibly beautiful. My memories of Oxford always have that surreal quality - as though nothing could ever be like that summer again.

鄉愁

早上老闆把車子開往長庚的方向，隨處停在路邊。車子很納悶，是要看醫生嗎？想到老闆可能生病了，它就有點緊張。但是等了一會兒，就回公司去了，並且順利的停在倉庫中。車子舒服的曬太陽，打盹。過了一會兒，老闆回來了，而且回長庚接了一位同事。原來老闆沒有生病，車子放心了，在路上輕快的跑著。但是回到公司確發現倉庫內的位置都停滿了，車子失望的調頭準備去土地公廟旁休息。正要轉彎的時候，路上突然衝出了一台沙石車，轟一聲的跟它擦身而過，噴的車子滿臉沙。它慢慢拖著輪子去土地公廟旁停定，灰頭土臉的想念老闆從前在台北市工作的日子，還有當時有樹蔭的停車位，不禁沮喪。

(還好台北市那些車子不在，它難過的想著，這樣好丟臉喔)。